life is so good right now.
all i can realyl say.
i'm happy with everything.
so good that I don't care about those little frustrating problems.
all i need for my happiness: friends, family, boyfriend.
i'm good.

ughh. hahha the last few days...MY BIRTHDAY WEEK! this is the best birthday week of my life.
from monday to friday. the best of the best, for real.
monday: i don't even remember, but it was good.
tuesday: my birthday- boyfriend bonding/little family partay.
wednesday: TMNIM on the radio.
thursday: good day of relaxxxxin'
friday: day consisted of the thrill from trying to make it to cbc on time, trying to skip school yada yada. then.... THIS MEANS NOTHING IN MEXICO WINNING...winning THE WHOLELLLELELELEL THING. everything. holy crap. everything's going good for them. so good:). hahah. then just chilling with friends that I haven't chilled with in a while. ended the night with my boyfriend dropping me off at home-against my will.
felt bad....
but i'm content. whateva. :) the weekend's gonna be dddoppppppe too.
holla.

call back.
please call back.
ughh.

 I haven't lied to my mother, in my opinion, in a pretty long time...
hahha. this weekend is going to be one of the exceptions.
If i get through this weekend alive, holy shit...i'll be so happy.
k...

Her face glow like I was exposed to sunlight
she's happy, her hair, toes and nails is dumb right
The smell of her fragrance, baffled my nostrils
I can see through her eyes, she's feeding on in the possible
She blushes, as I kept splashing her compliments
Polite thank yous, is all around, she crush the mints
Developments, smooth keys from the piano
Changed the mood, like we changed the channel
This is art, Picasso, I got him beat in the flesh
I'm staring at beauty, Nefertiti, heaven bone in the chest

yeeeeeuppppp it's fall.
chillin' with friends on cold friday nights.
laughing and finding comfort in the most nastiest things that we'd only find amusing.
acting obnoxious and being lazy and warm. 
i'm loving ittttt.

i thought this feeling was only possible in the summer. ahhah
when i was happy...

but you know that feeling where you just sit there listening to music and you're basically just...
soaking everything up. and just feeling everything. hahahaha. and you realize that EVERYTHING is fine.
everything is good.
i'm feeling that right now and it's great.
i'm starting to realize that i love fall...and winter....and spring....and not only summer. hahaha.
Sure i miss summer. I miss the crazy nights, and the hot days, and the sweat, and the little clothes, and those parties, and thsoe friends, and that trouble yada yada yada.
but i like fall.
i like being bundled up bussing everywhere in the cold.
i like how the day becomes night fast now.
i love the dark.
i like the cold.
i like the comfort.
i like the school.
i love the friends.
i love the family.
it's chill again. hahhaah, seriously goodbye summer, actually.
shutup ton.

Everything is now out in the open with my mom and me..
Yes I party a lot.
Yes I drink.
Yes I smoke.
Yes I steal.
Yes lie a lot.
Yes I'm shady.
Yes I swear.
Yes I sneak out and in.
Yes I have a boyfriend, you can meet him next week.

And it was crazy, not only seeing her reaction about everything, but realizing something about myself.
The things I do... the people that I hurt in the process. Claiming that it's just "life", I'm a teenager, whatever...
But kind of looking at it at a different perspective.... I'm hurt....& kinda stupid.
I just really want to stop everything, rewind and re do. ..
well not really re do....because I've learned so much from all those things..and idk.
haha.
It just actually kinda killed me a little to realize how much I'm hurting you, and how you realllllly don't deserve that disappointment.
So from now on, everything is going to be the truth between me and you.
No hiding from mammmmii

sometimes I wonder if you're really into it.
sometimes I think you're lying.

seriously...
all i wanted to do tonight was hug you really hard and not let go.

........

anyways, school's getting really chill now.
classes, first red day, first pep rally, first football game...
and even though we lost, it was cool seeing, basically, EVERYONE there. everyone cheering, everyone, kinda, having a good time.
I had a pretty good time...
so, I may be just one degree from honestly saying: I think I'm starting to like school again... we'll see what happens. hahah
I mean, I don't think I mind it that much...
it's just the early mornings really, but hey whatever.
I like waking up to the dark, acutally.
oh and the fact taht I still feel summer stupidity...hahah. eh.

OH YEAHH AHAHAH. I'm listening to a band that is made up of three of my friends.... AND IT'S AMAZING.
hHAHAHAHAHA!.
idk, the first time I heard it, I was honestly blown away. Just how the lyrics, beat, and it's like woww.... these guys are so good. They're so talented, and their songs are so feeling filled and ...I don't know. like you know when you hear a good song that really appeals to you? ....well it's like x10000000 with them because I know the guys who wrote the song, and it's fun knowing what they may be thinking...hahaha
just that, just that. I know them, and thye're so fucking talented that it's crazy ....cute. hahaha :S. crazy good.